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his iniquity ; but his blood will I require at thy
hand. Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of
his way to turn from it; il he do not turn [rom his
way, he shall die'in his iniquity; but thou hast de-
livered thy soul."—Ezek. xxxiti. 8,9. I feltihat
il the wicked could be effectually warned, mule
tudes of them would repent; and that il they were
not warned, their blood might be required at my
hand. I did all 1could to avoid the conviction that
any thing was required of ne; and I thought that
by freely speaking of it to all, [ should perform my
dutv, and that God would raise up the necessary
instrumentality for the accomplishment of the
work. T prayed that some minister might see the
truth, and devote himnsell to its promulgation; but
still it was impressed upon me, “Go and tell it to
the world : their blood will [ requiie at thy hand.”
The morel presented itin conversation, the more
dissatisfied I felt with myself for withholding it
from the public. I tried to excuse myself to the
Lord for not going out and proclaiming it to the
world, I told the Lord that I was not used to pub-
lic speaking, that I had not the necessary qualifica-
tions to gain the attention of an audience, that I
was very diffident and feared to go before the world,
that they would * not believe me nor hearken to
my voice,” that I was “slow ol speech, and of a
slow tongue.” But 1 could get no relief.
In this way I struggled on fur nine years longer,
pursuing the study of the Bible, doing all I could 10
present the nearness of Christ's coming to those
whow circumstances threw in my way, but resist-
ing my inpressions of duty, 10 go out as a public
teacher. 1 was then fifiy years old, and it sceined
~ impossible for me to surmount the obstacles which
lay in my path, to successfully present it in a pub-
lic manger.
MR. NILLER WRITES A SERIES OF ARTICLES FOR
THE PRESS.
Quite a number wished me to write out my views.
1 accordingly prepared a series of articles over the
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signature of W. M. and sent them to the Vermont
Telegraph, a Baptist paper, then published at Bran-
don. Vt. The editor refused to publish them unless
he could know the name of the writer. [I accord-
ingly communicated it to him, supposing that he
would not make it public. The articles then ap-
peared in a series of sixteen numbers, the first of
which was published in the paper dated May 15th,
1832.
I had supposed in communicating my views to
the world wr this series of articles, that I should
have performed all that was required of me; but I
could not escape the impression, “Go and tell it to
the world, their blood will I require at thy band.”
It some how became known that I was the wriler
of those articles; I began to be fluoded with
Jeuters of inquiry respecting my views; and visitors
flocked to converse with me on the subject. I be-
came more distressed, lest the blood of souls should
be required of me. ‘
IIE COVENANTS WITH GOD TO GO WHERE THE WAY
OPENS.
One Saturday after breakfast, in the summer of
1833, [ sat down at my desk lo examine some
point ; and as I arose to go oul lo work, it came
home to me with more force than ever, “Go and tell
it to the world.” The impression was so sudden,
and came with such force, that | settled down into
my chair, saying, I can’t go, Lord. * Why not ?
seemed 10 be the response ; and then all my excus-
es came up, my want of ability, &c.; but my dis-
tress became so great, I entered into a solemn cove-
pant with God, that if he would open the way, I
would go and perform my duty to the world. “What
do you mean by opening the way?” seemed to come
to me. Why, said 1, if I shoulc have an invitation
to speak publicly in any place, I will go and tell
them what I find in the Bible about the Lord’s
coming. Instantly all my burden was gone; and
I rejoiced that I should not probably be thus call-
ed upon; for I had never bad such an invitation:
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